The 14th day on Augest

I have many things to write down. I seem to harvest something. How to start? En, Anyway, let’s begin. Recently, I always listen some words, such as “my vegetable has been stolen by some one.” Or “I am waiting for some hours ahead screen, because I will get my mature fruit back and stole others.”, which spoken out by students, even my leader. Oh god, That’s very funny. But, I don’t like it at all. I don’t know why. Although I owned account which applied by honey, I never play it. Maybe I am addict to take photo and camera totally. At beginning, I like sound from which I pressed shutter of camera. Then I found photography is so amazing to attract me to explore and discover. I bought a camera and a Len in period of financial crisis(During this period, Canon company cut off staff and improve cost). Hence I cherish them so much. Sometimes, honey complained me that I spend much time on it and ignore her. In here, apologized first, I will pay more attention in future. Of course, at beginning, I lack some important knowledge, such as understanding of photography, skills, aesthetic eyesight and special view, which affect quality of photo. But, those factors are inspiring me to explore meaningful journey and discover beauty around us. By the way, there is the other thing I must mention. In a “Protect our environment” activity which held by our company, organization selected two photos I took and uploaded them on online gallery of our company. Where amazing happened. This award facilitate directly my passion on photography. I will appreciate honey, because she assisted me to pick two photos up from album. Honey strongly recommended that <Night At Museum II> is a very funny movie. I doubted that first. That’s why I haven’t seen <Night At Museum I>. After I watched it, that’s so funny, so cool. I like it so much. The movie made me so happy and told me a truth that Do things you like, Stay with people you like. Yeah, it’s true. Suddenly, I felt that I has been released. I don’t care how much salary I earned, I don’t care when I am promoted. The point is step by step. I know I am doing right things I like and staying with people I like. That’s enough, isn’t it? Now, Coffee is essential drinking in my daily life. Previously, I didn’t like drinking it. I don’t know how to start. Maybe I feel tired or I feel boring, even I want to pretend that I have taste. Whatever any starting, I like drinking coffee finally. In order to bring a relax and happy mood while I am drinking coffee, honey gave me a starbucks’ coffee cup as gift. I am so touched really, I know she spent her pin money on it. I have to say this feeling is so good. Since end of last year, our company cut off some staff at long intervals. Fortunately, I am one of survivals. However, company is being re-organized. It’s said I will be transferred to the other team which its products are for AS400 platform. I haven’t known AS400 platform and its related development languages before, such as CL and RPG. If I would be transferred, it’s no doubt that there is a virgin area waiting for me. Challenge is everywhere. Be cool, be funny. There is a lyric could express my feeling “That’s a way, aha, aha, I like it, aha, aha.”One more thing, I have stepped that I am studying how to investment and do in practice. That’s why I deeply knew that I spent two more years to show I am not a moneymaker. How about investment? God knows.

I found I am smoothly losting direction of life. I wanna complain any unfair things, but I don't. Because I know it is useless. I always lose my temper so that I can not solve problem finally. After all, U will be look so bad while u r losing temper. But, how do i wipe out unhappiness? And once u suffered a bad thing, so more and more unlucky things would coming soon. Although u wanna change current situation to deal with or face tough things, they never give u a little breathing space. The future is becoming unclear. It's awful that it would be continued.

I want to write many many things what happened. However I do not know how to start. I found I am not a logical thinker.
Whatever, high pressure of working, current financial crisis and expected dream of parents let me never escape out.  To be honest, I start to hating this boring social generally. I finally understand some people would suicide or kill others in order to revenge social. As previously, I doubted that why I can not do better than others. Because I am lazy, I don't like doing IT. But I am wrong, When I try my best to change situation, promotion is still hard for me. Yesterday, I got 3 as my score of Total Prefermence Management for whole year. 3 means that no promotion and little incressment of salary. The score make me feel fucking sick. Management totally ignored my effort and contribution for company. Complain is useless. That is why hundreds and thousands graduated students are hunting it.

Woo..., almost 6 months I haven't updated here yet. Since cancelled Internet connection service, I am losting interesting for internet smoothly. Coz I don't watch screen again after be off work which is last nearly 10 hours per day. In addition, I became lazy, even no passion to change my current status. Just like playing video game at entainment square is addiction. Unhealth and borning life status is closely to me. I could not benefit form daliy working. I don't know whether I like doing present work. However, I am sure there is a dark future if hold this job. Lucky, nowadays, I haven't been fired by company yet in this economic winter. So to change direction of major is becoming a fresh idea in brain.   Will it be come true during following 2009 year? I hope so. 

Until today, I encouraged myself to write this blog to remember people who lose life in this serious disaster, to remember all heroes who rescued people's life day by day. At meanwhile, we should encourage people who escape from dead ghost should keep going better and better, although some of them lose their relatives.

 

Not only a huge loss and a great amount of people injured and dead the black 5.12 gave us, but also it is bringing us a big love. There is a good proverb shows no matter how much disaster they burden, it will become a very tiny partition, because it is divided with i billion and 3 thousand million; no matter how much love we give, it will become a very huge love, because it is multiplied by 1 billion and 3 thousand million. I am really touched by the proverb. Because, it can show our Chinese are great. We don't lower our great heads. In converse, we will become stronger than before. This is our spirit of great nation. I believe that we can overcome everything all the time.

 

We don't forget those touched pictures which let us flow tear. We pray for them to rebuild their beautiful home town, recover their health. As Premier Wen said:" although you are alive, I hope you can enjoy your life.

 

Let us condole them together... 

This is a very exciting day! Torch Relay activity held in Guangzhou today. And I don't know how to describe my feeling, besides exciting, only exciting left. I saw so many flags were swung, brilliant smile, tears of joy and exciting. I heard resounding voice "China, Come on", "Go, China". This is a great time. This is a great moment. We were waiting for a national victory which belong to all Chinese rather than Torch Relay. Everybody is proud of China. While we saw Shen Xiangfu who is one of Torch Relay Hands run slowly towards us, we witnessed the historic moment. Next, Torch Relay will cross many cities of China and arrive at Beijing finally. I believe 2008 Beijing Olympic games must be successful.

Congratulate honey to get the first place with her dance team in Dance with Wind activity of University.

 

The day before yesterday, i went to watch her performance as one of members in support team. Actually, I suddenly felt a  warm and kind atmosphere when i stepped into hall of campus. The scene seems like so familiar to make me recall some activities i participated in while I studied in university. The campus living is really a special and wonderful process during whole life for everyone.

 

Before, their college continues to hold the first place twice. To be continued to get the No.1 everyone wishes. It is no doubt that there is enough heavy pressure for them. Hence, that day, my main tasks were certainly to support her and take pictures. They had been arranged to enter stage at the 12th, so, I should adjust camera first in order to avoid take unclear or dark pictures. That's why i have blank experience to take stage pictures. Finally, I went out from support team and found a better place to take pictures. With the strongest applause, they were on the stage to show. I had no time to select other angles, just pressed shutter button nonstop. During short 5 mins, i took about 60 pictures to record their every moment. After approxximate 30 minutes, judges confirmed their every moment i took is perfect. They are No.1.

 

In the evening, we had a nice dinner with my good friend who came from Shenzhen. He was so happy and treated us, because he made a new girlfriend. Congratulations! We enjoyed that evening indeed. That's why we seldom were together after we graduated.

 

For me, I haven't any change. My working is busier than before. The routine makes me so boring everyday. But I have nothing complaint. At least, the calm life doesn't provide enough materials to write a blog.

 

Since every boby was born with crying, he/she was destined to compete in society and family. At the beginning, parents are proud of their own baby who is more beautiful, white, fat and cute than other babies. With baby grows up, parents care of children's intelligence higher than others. Next, to compare grade whose is higher in school, to compare who is matriculated by famous university. As following, to compare who is employed by famous company, to compare how much money earned by own children, even, to compare whose bf or gf is better than others. That is really ridiculous. It is no doubt said that parents wish their own children cause easily dark feeling for their own future. Everyone has own ideal, aim and life. Meanwhile, i also believe ideal will be affected by others or affect  others. For the same way which maybe suit for someone, but it isn't suit for self. In my opinion, to compete with others is just for result, to compete with self is for own ideal.

The “understand” is comparatively interesting word. That is why the word could express accurate feeling which people understand each other. The word “under” and the word “stand” compose “understand”. In my opinion, the word “understand” could extent meaning that A stands under the B. That means A understands the B. I think. Actually, understanding is hard to carry with when something happened. I am not sure how to explain “understand” by other people? I do not know whether everybody is capable to deal with understanding finely. At least, I can not. I must appreciate honey in here. Because she gave me understanding that she gave up her interesting in order to care my feeling and will not blunt my good mood. I remembered that I have written a blog about her interesting and my personal problems for her interesting. Her hobby is dancing, and her performance is very good. Consequently, so many opportunities will visit her certainly. General speaking, I support her interesting at all. But I do not like to see she dance with other guys. Although I know it belongs to normal society, I could not accept it still. To face new performance opportunity coming, she gave it up. It is not easy for her who is like dancing so much. It is no doubt that she paid more sacrifice than me. Contrary to what she made a decision, I always think about my own feeling. I have persuaded me to let she dance with guys so many times. Finally, I am failure and am not able to conquer myself to accept it. I would like to say sorry for her.